My head has installed some auto stalling out thing and it is the bane of my existence.   As so young a boy as I just about could be.  Mother Father and sometimes both older brothers went to family counseling.  Since there were several upsetting times amongst the family members.  Generally it was generation gap hogwash, played out nerves of the parents , me ,  one son doing a lot of low level illegal things as shop lifting and the like.   The oldest kept himself proactively busy at work place jobs.  The counseling ceased happening after   4  or5  months.  I needed structure.  I went  into special education.  I later re-integrated to regular school.  So say there are three levels of my quasi anti social things which initially disturbed the students and teachers in class. The problems I made that had the beat and uncool effect on me.  Some of the behaviors in the 1st.  2nd. & 3rd. we’re lowered  a good amount  , then in a few parts say like being shy and worried way too much  remained kind of in a messy state.   Finishing my work was normally my toughest space of problems for me back then. Now it is better I believe.  Less than average.    The overall huge not going well thing of all time for me.  Is a pattern of nearly nothing hardly much at all anyhow ever gets  resolved to a pleasant degree of satisfaction. I will add it has a psychological draining sense or feeling to me.                I want to say to you  I  wish for everyone  to have a good day.