I  woke  in a fair mood and  condition.  I miss her a big big   big  bunch.   She is sadly of course no more with me.    She died at  home on April 20th.  1987.   She liked to play  gin rummy ,  scrabble ,  poker sometimes with chips.  Five card draw , was a choice of it.  My oldest brother  Jeff began to work part time  so he was not a player.  Jonathan  and I did regularly.  In  the living room was where the stereo played Benny Goodman , Glen Miller, Duke Ellington,  Judy  Garland ,  and  Nat King Cole.      I  nearly  left out  Sarah Vaughn and  Lena Horne.  Shuffling cards was Jon,s art.  Mine was twice a game or so letting card fall from my hands.   Mom  scored the contest of ours.  I miss everything  about her.  She had a  fierce firm cool plus lived with mental depression.  I know a high number of good ways to live my life from her teaching me.  She led Jonny my brother  to expand his vocabulary.   I know that she gave to Jeff lessons to being an example  to Jon and I  as to  how to be with others.   A  mid westerner from  Green Bay ,  Wisconsin.   Born there in 1931 she had a sister  Jean. They were closest of our family  from my perspective.    I   Love   You   Mother.